Surviving the First Year of Motherhood

I couldn’t believe it when my baby girl turned one!

On June 27th of this year I woke up with completely mixed emotions: on one hand I was super excited for my babe’s first birthday, but on the other hand I was so devastated.

I have no idea where the past year went.

So much had happened since my little girl was born: I had huge issues with my mental health, had falling outs with some toxic friendships, I realized who was really there for us, and all of this was while Collin and I were navigating being new parents.

I remember the first couple months of Izzy’s life were spent with me breastfeeding her pretty much 24/7. Then the first five months or so of her life she only wanted to sleep or nap with me. I had no time to do anything for myself, and I couldn’t even have me time while she rested since she needed me.

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People would always offer to watch her but it was so hard to even picture leaving her: not only did I not want to be apart from her but I was also breastfeeding exclusively. I didn’t want to pump and I didn’t want Izzy to be a handful for anyone who watched her so it was just easier for me to take care of her.

I was struggling so much with housework, being a mom, finding the balance of doing things for myself, making time for my marriage, all while struggling so much with mental health issues.

But at the same time, even though this was such a difficult year, the first year of Izzy’s life was hands down the best year of mine.

I have truly found my calling. I always knew I wanted to be a mom – but this totally solidified the fact that I was MEANT to be a mom.

So, here’s my advice to all the mamas out there.

Yes. The first year will be hard at times.

You will miss out on sleep. Your marriage dynamic will change and you will have to find a new normal. You will not get as much me time. Your body will still be changing from postpartum hormones and physically from the fact that you just grew and birthed a little human.

You will be thrown up on, possibly pooped and peed on. Your hair will get pulled, your baby will probably smack you in the face quite a few times.

But you will also have more love than you ever thought possible.

You will get so many hugs and kisses from your little one. You will have so many unforgettable moments. You will share so many laughs. You may even find a new calling for yourself. Your marriage will hopefully get stronger because the fact that you are now parents to a perfect little human.

It is so hard at times but it is SO worth it.

The first year as a mom (whether you are a first-time mom or a third-time mom) will be one of the best of your life.

And I hope while you are going through all of these trials you soak in every moment. I hope you learn that it’s okay to have hard times and it’s okay to learn from your mistakes and from the difficult moments.