Halloween 2018 - and an Unexpected Lesson I Learned
I have an issue with letting things ruin my day way too often.
The day will be going well and just one bad thing will happen: then my mood and the day go south. I don’t try to be this way (I blame it on my mental illnesses) but I do try to work on it every chance I get… and I do think I have gotten a lot better.
So Halloween was no different in the way that I had high hopes and really didn’t want the day to go south.
The day started off like any other day and I was excited to make things go according to plan. Izzy had her Boo from Monster’s Inc costume that I put together for her and I was so excited for her to try it on.
But I didn’t even get a picture of her in it before she started playing with my makeup (when I left her alone for a couple minutes) and her costume was too messy to wear. So then I started to stress about finding her a new costume.
Then we went to Izzy’s first ever dentist appointment! I was extremely nervous due to the fact that one of the main reasons we were going was so I could ask some questions about a few things I noticed with Izzy.
And they also did confirm the fact that my baby girl is getting in 6 teeth at one time… SIX TEETH! Which definitely explains her fussiness lately.
After the dentist appointment we headed home and I put her down for her nap.
I have been so exhausted lately (due to a dosage increase in my daily antidepressant) so when Izzy is asleep I want to do absolutely nothing. But that wasn’t an option today because I had to clean and get some pumpkin carving done. We were not able to carve pumpkins as a family since Collin has been working a lot and has been on call so I wanted to make sure I did it for us.
So I sat at the table, carving our pumpkins and I couldn’t help but feel a little down at the fact that I was doing this all on my own.
When Izzy got up from her nap she was so fussy, so I was really dreading taking her out anywhere - but I was so excited to go to our friend’s house for trick-or-treating. I ended up finding an Anna dress (from Frozen) and even though it was a little big on her it fit well enough for her to wear!
So our costume dilemma was taken care of!
We headed off to Target to pick up chips before we headed over to our friend’s house. And at Target, Izzy did an amazing job. She was no longer fussy, was waving and blowing kisses to everyone, and was just being such a sweetheart! I was so proud of my girl!
On the way from Target to our friend’s house my mood was pretty sour. I was so tired, frustrated because I carved pumpkins all by myself, and sad because I just was hoping that Collin would be able to join us for trick-or-treating.
While I was driving, though, I told myself something I had never been able to say to myself before - and truly mean it.
I told myself that it doesn’t have to be a PERFECT day to be a GOOD one.
For some people that might be obvious, but when you struggle with depression and anxiety this can be one of the hardest things to deal with. My mental illnesses take over my emotions all the time and this was a GIANT step for me to be able to feel this way.
I was so excited even just being able to tell myself this!
And you know what? The rest of the day wasn’t perfect - but it was pretty darn good!
I tried getting pictures of Izzy with her friends, but naturally it is almost impossible for toddlers to sit still so that didn’t work. But I did get some adorable pics of Izzy on her own!
And Collin even made it to trick-or-treat with us!
I thought Izzy was too young to have fun but she had a blast! She was walking from house to house (even trying to walk up the driveways on her own). When they opened the door she tried saying trick-or-treat a couple times (but it just sounded like how she says tickle) and she gave fist bumps and blew kisses when she got candy!
I even got a picture of the girls trick-or-treating together! And boy, are they so cute!
Needless to say, even though the day wasn’t perfect - it was good! It was honestly everything I could have asked for and more!
I hope if you suffer with a mental illness, or even just having tough days, that you can remind yourself that today is a good day for a good day!